Saturday, December 25, 2004

my take on olivia - rip from youth.arm blog

Ripped off from my entry at the youth.arm blog. Busy with WorldsMMU

ok i can't make any vote on the issue of olivia because i have just heard from one side of the story.

What is stated below is not a represenation of what Olivia.
Disclaimer : Opinions below is solely my take on this issue

Just to clarify things if any of you feel that olivia came to the last session to spite you guys than all i can say is NO.
Why?Coz in actual fact she didn't wanna come to the session and I asked her to come. Maybe even hassle cause well i dunno when to shut up...but it worked muahhahah.(Persistance pays yea.)

Back to the issue.We were suppose to go to a rock concert together and when she decided to stay instead of following me to the concert, I was pleasantly surprise because to me it meant that she really wanted to be part of the group and it wasn't just me psycho-ing her by repeating COme come COME. In actual fact she wanted to quit the group (fact) because she got fired and she was embarassed (sort of fact)...go ask her if you really wanna know how she feels because i am not her (no guarentee she will tell though)

I highly doubt she came to spite us all and in my opinion all she wanted was acceptance from us. If you wanna say she is fucked up then well i dunno coz everyone's fucked up in thier weird way.Look at me (yea a call for attention to meself).If she was rude well what can i say, people can get extra defensive when they feel theaten won't you. IF you guys are voting her out because you think that her behaviour was inappropriate for not joining in then well erm from her i got the impression that she felt unsure and was just waiting for the time when she feels comfortable before joining us because at that time in my opinion she probaly didn't really feel like she was a part of the group.

All i am asking from everyone within the group is to try and see things from Sum's point of view as well as Olivia's and then make a decision. I don't know what happen after i left and i had only feedback from Teresa and olivia.
Admitedly everyone wants something and i guess sometimes its hard to ask for help because no one wants to seem weak hell i should know. What sort of "safe" space is YA's going to be when conflicts between people aren't resolved? I still remember a very drunk and extremely talkative Ariff telling me that there can never be a production with no conflict and yea i was pissed off for a while (but not any more la) because well yea I like things going smoothly because it makes my life easier etc etc (Note to myself:must get everyone drunk together one day)

this isn't a post to ask you guys to side me etc but i really do NOt agree to the fact that when olivia's service with vtc was terminated she was kicked out from the YA's blog too. to me it seemed that she was kicked out of YA's and left with no avenue to state her take on what happen. Grossly unfair (alright alright i am not trying to be an activist or start striping naked and go Save the whales blabalbal) I also do not think that we can all make a fair judgement to vote on the issue of Olivia when we are only presented with one side of the story.

Right talked enough and i am grumpy. Sorry people but you problay see me getting grumpy when you hang out with me everyday (once a week is just not enough). If i say anything offensive i apologize but do tell me because i am a blur person and don't know when to shut up...sometimes i think

Ok its back to mom and her cooking and the MMUWorlds which is causing me to not poo due to stress (yea i know everyone got stress in thier lives but this is my post so its about me ME muahahhahah).

ohh by the way do come and check out the debates.check it out at
Come and check out the Worlds biggest big mouths.Can't guarentee that they will be as entertaining as me (at least i hope i am entertaining I know i entertain myself...some how sounds so wrong). Erm if any of you turn up for the social then i got to say sorry but you guys aren't allowed in due to security reasons. Yea thats the time where i will be getting sloshed again (dun you guys just hate me) because there is going to be a free flow of beers and liquor.*SIGH* And there is a lot of it.*Multiple SIGHS* (yea it be great if its orgasms which i will hopefully get soon. the best stress buster...that is if you don't have to work for it in return :P)

HAllmark moment
Ok i said i would shut up but i didn't. Will shut up now after the little note at the bottom. MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR.Forgive and forget and accept one another warts and all.

p/s inappropriate language /spelling mistake/unexplainable verbal diahrrea(how do you spell that)/abusive language/me being big headed, i blame it solely on the fact that i had a total of 10 hours of sleep for the past 1 week and me having a massive ego as well as a big head. Spelling errors due to me not using Words and spell check ehehe.Yeah its excuses :P

I proof read this post :P me is show off

ME : Over and out.
people reading this : Finally

Thursday, December 16, 2004

What In the World Happen To You?

Shite I found out that Ollie got terminated (No she didn’t disintegrate) and there is a high chance that she isn’t coming back to the YA’s project any more. I don’t know why I am so upset I mean I hardly know her and yet I guess I do. She always seem rather reserve the few times I met her and I guess in a way I kinda know how she is like through her blog. I don’t think she really want to leave the YA’s and I don’t want her to leave either. I just think that if any one of us start leaving for good than there will be nothing to stop me or any other persons from leaving when the going gets tough. Argh I really can’t believe this is happening. There goes the continuation of the Philippines. Can’t believe that missing 1 week of YA’s can be so disastrous.

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

iNtRoducing - Luigi

Praba (M) – Coach
Logan (M) – Chief Adjudicator
Me (Femme) – Jungle
Gin (M) – My debating teammate
Pam (Femme) – MMU 1
Licky (M) – Short for Way To Lick

Location : Philippines , Luigi’s Place

Reason : Debating competition and Promote Worlds MMU

Like in every society there are always the rich and the poor. Yet in Manila I see children running around begging on the streets.

Day 1 - Friday

OMG!!!Beer and death sticks are freaking cheap here. The gang + our host for today, Luigi drank and smoke atthe Shell petrol station. Lets pray hard that the death sticks do not cause an explosion. The Malaysians were pretty surprise that sunset happens at 6pm
Night: Got a fabulous dinner compliments from the De La Salle University (DLSU) people. Noticed that every restaurant that we went to had security guards. Later the gang head up to the pub. We found this really great pub that played 80’s music and the gang got smashed. The night ended with Praba, Logan ,Pam and Me staying over at Luigi’s place where as the rest of them were shipped off to Miguel’s place.

Day 2 – Saturday

I never was much of a morning person. We had breakfast with Luigi’s parents. I always knew I wasn’t into all these prim and proper stuff. I feel so tense. Breakfast was bacon, corned beef, cheese…nevermind I was never much of a breakfast person either and I had cereals without milk and 1 banana. Luigi’s mom is really nice.
Later on its off to debates. Considering the fact that Logan was the CA, well the debates can’t start until he gets there. Today is the day where I noticed what a contrast Manila is.
I didn’t do too well in the debates today mainly because I didn’t keep my head on plus the fact that I didn’t feel too confident about myself. I guess I should read up on current events but at times it does make me frustrated because there are so many things wrong in this world and there isn’t anything that I can do about it.
Night: We went over to Joel’s place to drink some more. Tried Tequila Rose and it taste like strawberry yogurt drink with a dash of alcohol. I like sweet liquor yum. I was a bit grumpy today because Gin and I didn’t make the break. We got 4 points out of 12 and I was really grumpy. That and the fact that I didn’t know where I was going to sleep for the night because Luigi got Pam’s and my bags in the car. I guess I couldn’t really blame him because he was only expecting Logan to stay over with him. We ended up sleeping at the same place again

Day 3 – Sunday

Woa I am pretty dazed most of the time. I think all the alcohol and ciggies is starting to take its toll on me. I seem to be either making up stuff or hearing people’s thoughts. Yea I know it doesn’t make sense but everything is so surreal. Today is the day where there was a certain guy who made remarks to a girl and she ended up getting upset. The thing is she asked for help from me but I didn’t know if what the guy said was true. Anyway there was a point where I felt that it went too far and it was derogatory to women in general and that got me pissed. The girl who is a Pilipino was upset coz the guy implied that they both had sex. Well she didn’t do anything with him and I guess she was in a fix because she couldn’t really defend herself. She said the last time that she “answered back” to the (same) guy she got reprimanded by the head. I guess its hard for me to explain this whole culture thing to a Caucasian guy. The rest of the day just got me in a weird mood. I didn’t really wanted to talk to anyone and I just felt grumpy the whole time.
Night : Yeap you guessed it drank some more. We went back to the same bar that we went to the first night but blardi hell this time they upped the price. We ended up holing in another bar.
Next thing I knew Joel (Luigi’s buddy) was saying that we be sleeping at his place tonight. At that point I didn’t really care anymore and I was irritated and frustrated because I was tired of feeling unsure of where I will be spending the night. Later I found out that Pam told Joel that it would be better if we just stick to the place. After all it would be our last night there. Well anyway we followed Joel back to his house and Luigi met us up. I was just wondering if I could drive his car and I just voiced it out jokingly and he actually let me drive it. Honestly I am touched and honored that he trusted me with his car. Still I got to admit it was pretty fun considering the fact that in Malaysia we drive on the right side of the road and they drive on the left side (or issit the other way round?) Found out that our host is a pretty good piano player too.
Went swim in the pool even though it is super chilly because I needed to de-stress.

Day 4 – Monday

Ahh… It feels like a Sunday morning. I feel so lazy. I was up pretty early because his mom came into the room and used the Internet. I ate breakfast and decided to take a walk around the neighborhood. The area is really nice and lovely though I did feel a little odd because people were looking and I didn’t really know how to react.
Logan had a cut on his knee and Luigi took him to the clinic. Pam followed along. The clinic was within his village (neighborhood) and we were supposed to play basketball but the court was occupied by badminton players and the doctor was out so its back to the house again. On the way back he offered to let me drive around his village and we went to another area where there were all these really huge mansions. I think most of the time I wasn’t really concentrating on the road cause I was looking at the houses. There was a cake house which isn’t much to see actually. I found the houses with Spanish influence pretty fascinating and there was a Californian house with a beach theme to it. I just drove around aimlessly and it was fun though this is the time when I feel I should be seated at the passenger street. I was looking for the ‘White House’ and Luigi directed the way. I think wao is the most overused word uttered by me for the day. It seems like Luigi is in a pretty good mood today until lunch time.

The gang stayed over at Luigi’s place last night. Everyone that is except Licky. Things were pretty tense at this point because it was close to 2:30 and Joel haven’t arrived yet. Logan was suppose to give a seminar or something like that and he was going to be late. When Joel arrived, he mentions something about some case presentation and that was when Luigi got pretty tense.
I don’t know why but I feel sad when I find out that people take weed to relax.

Met Willy who is Praba’s friend/ ex debating mate.
Had dinner and then its off to Greenhill for some shopping. We arrived pretty late and the stalls were starting to close. The interesting bit was when we all met up at the arcade call Time zone. I had a go at air hockey and I sucked but later on I ruled muahhahaha. I didn’t tell them that me and Wei Ling used to spend all our time at Intensity (arcade in 1 Utama) playing air hockey so I practically grew up with this. It really felt like high school again and it is really funny at times especially when the puck flies of the table. Had a go at Bishi Bashi which is another silly game that Wei Ling and I used to play. Other than that there was Daytona, Time Crisis 2 and House of the Dead. Sigh

Had my first taste of Zombie and it is good Slurp!!!

Monday, December 13, 2004


Right people. It may seem that I have forgotten about you guys but the truth is right now I am in the Philippines. You have to forgive me right now because honestly I am smashed.Actually i am still surprise that i can spell/type this at this moment ahhahaha (find its a private joke)
I think i fell in love with this country.The moment was when i entered the cathedrel in Intramorous, Manila. Just in case you are wondering I am a free thinker/Agnostic. I believe there is a God but i don't suscribe to one particular belief/religion.Anyway back to Intramorous. I think that place is just absolutely beautiful. I have this facination for old buildings and Intramorous is filled with it.....
will continue the next time when i don't feel sleepy and dizzy eheheheh
Just to tell you guys (maybe myslef) that i am in the Philippines